Deficit

There are days when you wake up with a feeling of inadequacy. A gnawing feeling like you are losing out on something with every passing moment but you can’t really put your finger on it. Much like Kareena Kapoor in Jab We Met “Muje na raat ko bure bure sapne aate the, jaise ki meri train chuut rahi ho”.

Deficits. Big holes we dig for ourselves that we can safely sink into aloof from reality. The wind blows and shifts the sand, it draws us back. We are tempted and scared all at the same time; we just dig deeper and deeper.

We nurture our own deficits.

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