My Life, A Cocktail

It’s quite unbelievable what shifts in hormone levels can do to you. You feel like a different person and can’t identify or associate some of your own actions. You look at the past and stare and scream “That wasn’t me!”

Everyone considered her heartless. To her, she was the most sensitive and emotional person that ever existed. People thought of her as haughty and indifferent. She could never express her emotions without making herself and others uncomfortable. But she had so much passion inside her that no one had dared to discover. She didn’t have many friends. She genuinely cared for everyone, sometimes even for strangers, and could never wish for a bad thing to befall on even her worst enemies. There was her, and then there was... the perception of her.

Today’s the official last working day of the year. As I leave work, I feel content. And proud. It’s a truly amazing feeling. I love my job! Happy Holidays!

There are days when you wake up with a feeling of inadequacy. A gnawing feeling like you are losing out on something with every passing moment but you can’t really put your finger on it. Much like Kareena Kapoor in Jab We Met “Muje na raat ko bure bure sapne aate the, jaise ki meri train chuut rahi ho”. Deficits. Big holes we dig for ourselves that we can safely sink into aloof from reality. The wind blows and shifts the sand, it draws us back. We are tempted and scared all at the same time; we just dig deeper and deeper. We nurture our own deficits.