My Life, A Cocktail

He isn’t going to be there when I get home tonight. He isn’t going to smile big and take my bag off my shoulders. He isn’t going to pick a fight with me for having taken him for granted for something today. He isn’t going to sit down to dinner with me. He isn’t going to watch TV in foreground and listen to my gibberish in the background. He isn’t going to shift himself to align to me as I shift in my sleep. He’s gone for 4 days and this is only the first. I can’t imagine a year full of weeks like these. Looking forward to Thursday, my new Friday.

Someone asked me a while ago, what is the most important thing in life? And I had replied, “Happiness”! This morning’s read got me thinking yet again about what influences my happiness. I have always believed people and circumstances affect you to the extent that you let them affect you. Certain people you hold dear to your heart and give them the access to make you happy or sad or inspired or whatever. You are the control giver, but you have no control over the control being abused. But today, with greater clarity I realize that there is one thing, above everything else, that influences my happiness. And that is me. I have the power to keep myself happy. And I am looking forward to using it luxuriously.

Woke up this morning scrubbing my eyes only to see 2 beautiful pots of button roses, one yellow, one red and 3 of my favorite boxes of chocolates. These are the best days of my life!

We often overlook what is right in front of our eyes and instead are distracted by the shiny little artificiality in the background. We take for granted our most important reasons for existence and consume our lives chasing trivial obsessions. And then there comes a time when life reveals the true nature of every relationship. We stare open mouthed and pretend to not believe. It often takes time for the actuality to sink into your skin. If we care to sit down and think, very soon we realize that there are some relationships that have never been shared equally. There is always a heavier end, and if that’s us, it becomes easier to let go. Here’s to making up for past ignorance and looking forward to value what is truly ours.