My Life, A Cocktail

For the love I had for life, I didnt jump off the balcony that night. I dont really know what it was that prompted me, to climb on the parapet wall, and look down the abyss, where little cars moved, as though in a game world. Somehow my so-called conscious had given away to the temptation that lay below, thousands of layers beneath the little cars, a world where there was no me. I longed to fall, with triumphant eyes, it seemed like I was almost there. Just at that moment, a rain drop fell on my shoulder, and I was transported to the world around me. I stepped back in horror. Sometimes, when I think of God, I would think it was He who brought the rain drop. Coz that night, it never rained, just a few drops, and that is all. Perhaps there were other people like me, standing on the parapet wall, desirous of achieving the unknown, who had to be saved. And so, He brought the drops with him. At other times, it feels like cowardice. For having taken the step, and quit. I dont know if it was ...

I was walking my way to the bus stop, I had my last exam. It was windy. The grass was beginning to take its lustre, after the long winter. The trees had started to bloom colors. And suddenly it happened. A gust of wind, from nowhere, and I had flower petals falling all over me, from the tree above. I thought it happened only in the movies. For me, just being in love did it.

I have been thinking, about holidays, about love. Ofcourse, I don't need a holiday to fall in love. Every day is a holiday, every day we could fall in love, all over again, with the same person. Like I do. It's in that little moment, that you don't notice, that love is created. Nicely put in the movie, "Look at me, just for now. Be quiet, please...". That, according to me, is "the moment". And how we live our lives, surrounded by these moments..... unrealized.....