My Life, A Cocktail

It is quite funny how we never forget to recharge our phones, our tablets, our laptops, our universal remote control even, and yet, don’t pay any heed to recharging ourselves. A little bit of calm can go a long way. It shouldn’t need a life wrecking moment to get our priorities straight. Relax. Refresh. Recharge.

Give to me, what life has to offer. I will welcome it all, with open arms. I will crane my neck to seek out new opportunities and live every moment as it is meant to be. I will not avoid, I will not disown and I will not shy away. For I will not be born again, not in this shape or form. So let me celebrate the life that this is, since my time here is too short. Why be afraid, why worry, I tell myself. I tell myself that this time, this space and all that matters is fleeting. Ups and downs, downs and ups, there will always be, it’s the rhythm of life. Why be afraid, why worry, it shan’t solve anything for me. Release it all to what surrounds you. Since you are simply a manifestation of truth, the truth that is you and all around you. Let it go, be free, for holding on to it is a misconception after all.

It feels the same, as though nothing has changed. As though, time has just stood still and it’s just another one of the old days. Like somehow all the days and months that have passed between now and then have just disappeared without a trace.  And yet, in the sameness of it all, amidst all the familiarity, there is something different. And I realize, the difference is not external. I cannot deny the fact that I have changed with time, with the days and months in between. I can’t deny that this is not my life anymore and the fact that I changed it to be what it is now, and for a reason. And it feels good to know that.  They say no matter how much you grow in life, no matter how far you go, you shouldn’t lose touch of your past. The past shapes you. So I am grateful for such opportunities, to be where I had once been, to reflect a little, bask in that innocence, albeit for a short while. 

There is no shame in being a mother. All mothers out there probably know what I am talking about. From the day our little babies are born, albeit the cord is cut, it persists. And it has changed us, thoroughly and completely. We will yell out without a care in the world to show off our pride for every single of his or her achievement. We will cry bucket load of tears like no one’s watching when they leave for a field trip for a few days. We will get ourselves in the most embarrassing of situations for their sake. For some of us, it comes naturally. For some of us, we learn with time and perhaps a bit of practice. Regardless, we all get there. So for all you mothers out there, be yourself. Trust your instincts. Who cares what anyone thinks anyways, as long as our little babies are safe and happy.